a little unfinished drawing for you
It’s past midnight, been up since 4.30 yesterday morning. Active Child + coffee lets do thisss!
After hanging clothes out to dry, writing lists and some studying, I went and picked up my königs this morning, all fixed up. Repair guy was so nice he wouldn’t let me pay, and I felt bad so I went and bought him coffee and a muffin. The barista eyed the long boot bag slung over my shoulder looking a bit intrigued:
"band practice or mini-golf?"
"oh! never’ve guessed. walnut and date or mixed berry?"
“walnut………should’ve said mini-golf”
Kind acts can really make your day. If it wasn’t for the kindness of others, my life would be pretty different. I have been lucky to be helped by numerous different people in their own ways, big/small, and those gestures always stay with me, keep me grateful and wanting to be a better person. When I think about it I really am blessed to have good people around me.
Kim Ki-duk’s Spring, Summer, Fall, Winter…and Spring
For instance my best friend and her parents let me live at their house, whilst I saved to pay off my horse’s surgery and afford tickets overseas, and had me over for Christmas too (as did Grace + her family and past Christmases before).
The nicest Swiss people you could ever meet (who work so hard running the best traditional Swiss butcher in Melbourne) offered months ago to look after my horse if I planned to go overseas. I am so thankful to them. Everyone at Arragon who have been so helpful that I can rest knowing Ebony will be in good hands. The Herzigs for looking after my float whilst I’m away. My sister’s talented make-up artist Maren and her chef extraordinaire husband for having us over and hooking me up in Hamburg, and her sister, even though they hardly know me - the generosity of all these people has made so many things possible for me.
Then there’s my queensland parents Li Mei and Bruce who remain the most humble, loving people I know. The lovely old chinese ladies at Tzu Chi - a buddhist charity - who always fixed me something to eat whenever I visited last year. Rose who is caring for my german shep Wolf so well. My ex housemate who worked on my car with me so it wouldn’t overheat on the drive to the equine hospital. Dan who ordered me IndieGame for my birthday, special edition!!
Cathy from clinics who let me come watch for no fee nearly every month last year, and Cristina who’s invited me to crash with familiar faces when I go through Spain. My sister who filmed video for me when it was freezing, raining and dark. Maggie and Charlie for having me stay at their house. Maggie again and my father for just everything.
Friends who don’t stop calling even though I have bailed on them time after time because I had to go and horse, who never hold grudges when I’m busy and I forget to call and text back, and with whom even after a long time apart can pick up where we left off as if nothing’s changed. Even the little things like the guy at the petrol station putting up with me paying for diesel in silver coins lol.
So many more but by now you have probably fallen asleep!
"The beauty of people lies in their virtue; it is displayed through their good deeds, good words, and good heart."
Jing Si Aphorisms, Cheng Yen
Next week I’ll be making my way to Lisbon in 3 flights, via HK and London. All the major stuff has been organised - Ebony’s just moved to a bigger paddock to chill out for the autumn and might be getting another warmblood friend to share it with. You better behave yourself horse! No injuries while I’m overseas…please
I have been super busy getting everything together and fitting in some riding before I go. Broke in my königs a couple weeks ago, already at repairs for a busted zip. Ah well, nothing trusty cobbler guy can’t handle! He is funny with his tattoos and earrings, you would never think he has a passion for growing flowers :)
So all that’s left to do this week is ride, pack and get psyched to fly solo to Europe! Ebony is improving with each ride, and although I’m stoked with how she’s been going it’s also a bit of a drainer that she’s only just come good and now I have to leave. Though I’m sure we’ll both enjoy our little holidays, I know I’m going to miss her like crazy and we’ll just have to start over again once I’m back.
the place I’ll call home soon:
I still havn’t really processed yet that I’m leaving, it’s weird to think I’ll be in Lisbon next week. And miss out a whole autumn here.
I’ll get one day off a week, and I hope to visit this place - the Portuguese School of Equestrian Art at the Queluz Palace. It would be so sick to see these horses in action! I think the instructors where I’ll be working had trained here previously. And it’s not far from where I’m staying!
Ah just look at all those pretty horses :)
In other news, I’ve been really happy living in the new place, for 3 weeks I think now, it’s great. Still can’t even believe my luck (although we did have a scare with the fires a couple weekends ago).
But it’s hard not to love all these luxuries, like pretty curtains and carpet and a coffee machine lol. I watched my first bit of tv last night since mid last year. Something housewives of Melbourne.
And there’s heaps of tomatoes growing in the garden. Free tomatoes!!
It’s also a nice thing to have a table to study at now! Every night I’ve been staying up way too late reading and filling up the moleskine. The more I’m learning the more I just realise how little I know and it stresses me out for a while, but after working through it and then remembering it the next day, I start to feel like I’m getting somewhere.
I’ll write more soon, it’s 3am and I’m still in a sleep deficit since last week. Stupid sleep wasting my life.
it’s thursday again and it’s been another busy week. I’ve just moved to my father’s partner’s old house, where I’ll be living with my almost stepbrother and sister. parental and rental free.I am so incredibly grateful and lucky!
the new room is a lot smaller but it fits all my stuff perfectly. after a bit of struggle turning the bed around and cleaning the kitchen, it took me under 10 minutes to unload my car and I was all set up.
it’s a little strange living in a place that has furniture now. february has come around a lot quicker than I expected, and the new owners will move in tomorrow. they seem like a nice old couple, and judging by their eagerness to water the garden the other night and then set up a casual late dinner picnic at 10pm, also pretty ready to call it home :)
I’m still getting organised tying up the loose ends before I leave, working and saving money, and riding in the morning/evening. I couldn’t be happier with how ebony’s been going, she improves with every ride and I’ve been working on just getting really nice relaxed paces and slowly building her strength again. last night was by far the best she’s felt since being back in work, and I was so happy with her that I ended it on a very good note with plenty of praise + mane-ruffling. I trimmed her feet, turned her out and called it a day, going home with that high after a ride that went well, and not being able to sleep until 2.30 because I couldn’t stop thinking about it.
ice coffee and a book on the train home >
sometimes I have the frustrating habit of letting myself get overwhelmed by how much I don’t know. there seem to be so many ways of training a horse, and whatever book I’m reading at the moment can be open to so many misinterpretations. and as much as any theory can help, I am still at square one when it comes to actually being on a horse and working in accordance to the temperament, the particular mood/sensitivity that day, physical limitations as well as analysing how best to react so that she goes better by the end than when we began.
a really useful statement that I try to keep in mind is from Luis Valença - “we must take what is good and improve it, but not spoil what is there”. common sense, but for me as a novice, easier to say than to do, unless I use my head.
I was looking at some work by a Venezuelan artist who does mathematical illustrations of elements in nature - butterfly helixes and the conical spiral of a shell, and as detailed and painstaking as it looks to create, there are also problems in drawing that can only be solved through simple practical experience. working a horse can relate to that - experimenting, testing, finding the limits, making mistakes and having to go back and work out how to fix them.
artist Rafael Araujo >
"there is naturally a learning curve, and as problems are solved, you become more adept, and again, daring."
riding is possibly a bit more objective than drawing, but I suppose with both you are still working within the limits of the medium and there will always be a consistent stream of problems to navigate your way around. overwork one area, become too focussed on one individual detail and you lose sight of the original aim, ruining the work you’ve created in the process. I have been guilty of this so many times, and the regret is one of the worst feelings in the world to me, but can also serve as a useful tool if I try to learn from it.
the first mini-series of photos is now up at hellodaimyo.com;
my german shep Wolf is in all of them >
i miss developing photos, the fixer fumes though - not so much. when i can afford it, i’d really like to buy a little polaroid camera to take with me overseas.
It’s another hot week ahead - mostly over 30 degrees and 40 on sunday. time to get some early morning rides in i think! and lots of studying at night.
sleep is for the weak
this long weekend it was too hot to do anything else except ride early, sleep the day away and be wide awake during the night. only another week or so until the next move.
i will miss this house and its little garden!
this time last year i was living at home alone while our house was being sold, stealing pumpkins from down the road, playing a lot of Fez and too much Skyrim. but before I’m judged for being slave to my xbox, I was also working at La Belle Miette, selling these lovely macarons:
photo on left taken by the beautiful Karen, and pictured on the right is their recently-opened Collins St shop. well worth a visit if you have a sweet tooth.
a year can seem long and short at the same time, so it counts to make the most of it and keep working towards the things you love. i learned a lot about myself last year which can only serve to make 2014 even better!
i might even get around to making some art again
go see my friend’s art
do it now
It’s been a week already - a pretty good one!
Today was a great day because
1) Rode this morning - (still getting over the fact I have a horse I can actually ride now, in addition to feed/clean/hand walk/give sugar)
2) Found these rice meal things on sale at 47c each. And there’s two in each box!!
3) I can relax now that I have some marvellous people looking after my horse while I’ll be in Europe. Let the planning/excited anticipation begin!
Travel insurance sorted + all the other necessary boring stuff that I had to organise so I could have peaceful peace of mind, and received some job offers from dressage stables in Germany which was pretty sweet! But I think I’m all set for work til I get back and then plan what I’ll be doing next. There’s too much I want to do and not enough time to do it all. Or money! Maybe I’ll become a street bum and Ebony can give pony rides. The world is our oyster.
It’s only a couple weeks before I move house again too.
And then a month til i’m off to Europe!
Where I’ll be working:
This photo was unsuspiciously swiped from one of my favourite blogs, Lusitano Life, written by an also 22 year old girl living in Portugal.
These stables are in Alverca, Portugal, about 20 mins from Lisbon. I don’t know any Portuguese but it’ll be sweet, pretty sure they speak english anyway.
But I will also make an effort to learn some basic words before I go. Just the important phrases, like where is the station? How do I get to ____? Why the obsession with salted cod?
Two and half months here, then Spain for a week in time for the Feria del Caballo, and then another dressage stable in Hamburg for two weeks. 2014’s looking pretty good!
Quinta da portela, at Morgado
Pretty excited to be living somewhere that has a well.
Time to go home and sleep now.
Felt like posting a bit about what’s been happening so far this year, last year, and a bit of what’s hopefully going to happen.
Art has taken a backseat for quite some time now, due to working full time and looking after my horse. I’m ok with it, sometimes it’s not possible to do everything but I know that I’m always getting as much done as I can in a day. As well as not having time, money’s been sparse for a while now and I’ve been super careful to stick to what I can afford with every aspect of life. So anything art-related is now limited to tiny drawings in a moleskine my friend gave me, which has been the best thing since sliced-bread and I’ve been using my downtime (late hours of the night after coming home from stables) to fill it up with ideas, plans, thoughts and notes.
The most important things I think I should mention that happened late last year - are about my horse. Her name is Ebony, she’s 9 and pretty much dominates my life, but I am so so lucky to have her. She had a trephine operation a few months ago (initially thought she had an infected tooth root) and then another surgery to remove a fist-sized maxillary sinus cyst (fortunately not a tumour!), and while that was healing up managed to give herself a rather significant cut in her front left heel which required a few stitches and stabling for over a month. It’s been her second week back out in the paddock now and although she took a great liking to being stabled, it’s a relief to see her back in the field walking around and happily grazing again. Another annoying thing we have managed to conquer was some photosensitive dermatitis on both her hind legs, and paddock boots during the day has prevented it from resurfacing. It was a pain in the arse to deal with and another relief to look at her hinds now they’re both clean and dermatitis-free.
So it’s been many months since I’ve ridden but after this insanely hot week of 40 degree heat is over, I think it’ll be time to start working her again. Which I am really happy for!
A photo of our last ride before finding that maxillary cyst - I can’t believe how tolerant she was to put up with me whilst this stupid thing was up her sinus putting pressure on the right side of her face.
In other news, I moved out from the room I was renting near my agistment and am now temporarily living with my lovely friend in her folks’ just-sold house. Thank God for air-conditioning. The only furniture there is a piano and a couple of beds, but really what more do you need…
I’m so lucky to be there and am forever grateful to them! I’ll be moving out again next month. Everything I own fits into my car anyway so it’s not a big deal!
I’ve also just bought my tickets to Europe which I am super excited about! But more on that later, this post is already way too long.
bit late but
the year’s nearly out, so much to do before 2014
remember to find time to stop working!
burnt out but happy.
some beautiful stuff!